It has been a dream to travel. To step foot on other countries, embracing their culture, being bimbotic with questions and enjoy the sceneries. I would love to visit places like Scotland, New Zealand, France etc. This strong desire never fades away. Insyaallah, i’ll work my way through it. Slowly but surely, lets cover all the hotspots of Malaysia first haha.

What if i die tmr.
What if God decided to take them away frm me.
What if my bestf got married.
What if i grow old alone.
What if the world seems lika warzone fr me.
What if my phobia of ghosts gets so real.

I hate how i get so scared of myself sometimes.
I hate crying to sleep.
I hate feeling this way.
I hate to believe some people uses spells on me.
I hate falling sick ovr shit reasons.
I hate this fcking angsty behaviour.

I can go write up song lyrics already.

Tuhan, lindungilah aku, hambamu yang lemah ini.

I believe God has a brilliant plan fr me out there, just that he wants me to think &decide it myself. Life is unpredictable yet it has an expected ending. We cant question nor is there a definite solution; it’s just that contradicting. I am grateful for having faith in you God, for enlightening me along the way, for giving me the strength to overcome my weakness but sometimes i get lost whenever i wish to be near perfection. I dont know what to do with my life but i know you do. Please guide me as i may make mistakes but i dont wish to face regrets.
It is all about the next phase in life that is literally driving me crazy. Yes, i need to make a definite decision before May kicks in. First thing first, alhamdulillah for my car license &Dip cert. I’ve never felt so successful in my life, amin.
Should i pursue ACCA? Or Degree? I guess it’s back to school for me to further up my knowledge. I see the light in accounts/audit industry for me &hence, i should work my way towards it. I guess it’s a no go for Financial planner, it is just not me to liase w customers :’(
Thus, i need to start saving! I need to have a travel savings, future savings and debt savings. It’s okay that my pay is insufficient for now, i should just be grateful indeed. No more being so spendthrift and no more 70percent wastage on food! Least I could be skinny if I dont focus on food! :)
But omg its embarrassing that i threw my resignation letter!!! Alrights, lets see what the boss has in store for me. If not, its time to leave and search for a new one! Woowee~

To have finally set foot at the beach makes me feel closer to God so suddenly. I miss Him despite not knowing/or the fact I believe His existence wholeheartedly (non-argumentative). The calm and relaxed feeling you’ll get is beyond definition (after a whole series of drama and chaos at work). Thank you God for your creation (despite manmade), it was still You behind everything made possible. Alhamdulillah.
I’ve waited months for this and thank you twinny for being sucha great sport. We have our ups and downs but I’m trying to swallow the fact that you’re all grown up now. Look who’s starting her poly life now! Hopefully it’ll be smooth sailing for you, Insyaallah. Also, May will be your month, i promise for the last time (fingers crossed!). So while I was burning (tanning) under the hot sun, I managed to let events run in my mind. How torturous but I guess it has come to a right point to erase all of them bitter ones once and for all. This will be my monthly affair; need.
My obsession for skinnybod has reached its peak thus the need to burn fats under the hot sun hahaha. Meanwhile, God allow me to answer impt calls this week please.

Bismillah to a new week.